Happy New Year

Happy New Year.

Only two months behind.

So where have I been? 

I have been changing some things. Thinking. Stopping and starting. Taking a long, awkward pause. Changing my mind. Thinking some more.

You may notice this blog looks different.

When I starting this blog, it was for a specific reason. Even though I had blogged before, but not for a few years, this blog began because I started selling something from home. I started this blog to share my journey and attract more customers. It was both real and controlled. There is nothing wrong with that. It is a way to create income for a family and feed and clothe children. It is a job. The products were good. The experience was good. People found what they need and want. I don’t have anything negative to say about my experience or what it is to sell these things. I guess, like all things, it just isn't for everyone.

And for a variety of reasons, I don't do it anymore. 

So what is this blog now? 

I thought about deleting it and starting over, but that isn't the truth. I am leaving it as it is and making slight adjustments from this point. 

I am still struggling with exercise and being healthy as I get older. I am still loving and hating running. I am still a parent, befuddled, and nerdy. I am still figuring it all out. 

And now I am more free. I don't have to worry about walking a fine line between writing what I want and attracting and not offending a variety of customers. 

I can explore writing even though my process is full of anxiety and messiness. I can rewrite and tinker with old posts because that is what I like to do. I can write about things you may not agree with. I can curse when I want to. I don't have to care how many people see it. 

This blog is now both old and new. 

It will be fun for me to see where it goes.

Thank you for reading.